HAPPY NEW YEAR !!

So, I began today working a 12 hour shift, and I work a 15 hour shift tomorrow, I hear that's a good thing though .. it supposedly means that I'm going to make some money this year, hopefully that's true! Needless to say, I am exhausted!! So this New Year I am going to enjoy my son and my bible from the comfort of my own home. I wanted to attend church, but I believe it'll be easier to worship from home this year.

2013 was a growing year for me! It was overall a good year, but nothings perfect. To list off some of the good things: my son had his first birthday party this year!, I got my first job in five years(so I guess I can't really complain for long shifts, I have a lot of making up to do!), I met pretty amazing people, and fixed (or working on fixing) old relationships. I am working on my relationship with God, and an experimenting vegetarian (story about this to come soon!)

I've grown in many different ways, and can't wait to see how I continue to grow and evolve next year! I am only going to be better, and I am so excited!

My plans for 2014 are to:
-do more listening
-exercise more
-eat better
-less worrying
-more believing
-more trust
-more confidence
-more understanding
-express my gratitude

I think it's silly to wait to new years and have this "new year, new me" idea; this is not that. That list are things that I have started to work on in myself already, and I just want to get better at all! I just want to be a better me overall. I want to be the best I can be. For me, Isaiah, and everyone that I surround myself with.

Thanks for the growth 2013, it's been real.
but I am so ready for this new chapter...
Can't wait to see what you have in store 2014!
Goodbye 2013, Hello 2014.

One Semester Closer to Graduation !

Tonight, I have a case of insomnia.. probably because of the way to long, but much needed nap I took with my son earlier, but this insomnia makes for a perfect time to update my blog and write a new post! The past two weeks for me were filled with studying and taking final exams, exhausting! Since I didn't do as well as I hoped during the semester, the grade I made on my finals (for most, but not all of my classes) could either make or break me.

Even though some of my professors were trying to send me to an early grave by waiting until the very last minute to post my grades, I am glad to say all my studying (and praying!) paid off because I passed all of my classes. And I made a 97 on one of my finals! I knew I had done well, but no idea I did that well! However, I did not make all A's and B's like I hoped, I got a couple of C's... I was really disappointed in that because in high school I never got C's but it's become the norm in my college career -__- I feel like going into college, I wasn't focused on school like I should have been. I don't know if it was because of my semi-sheltered life, but I just wanted to have fun and explore... Sometimes I wish I would have started at a community college to catch my bearings and realize the seriousness of it all, but everything happens for a reason and I have no regrets. But I really thought I could skip class, party all night, and barely study and still make passing grades, like high school.. I just find the ridiculousness of that sooo funny now. Young and dumb.

Anyway, despite all of that I have only two semesters left of my undergrad year! I will be taking on a heavy load (again) next semester.. another 17 credit hours, but for my final semester I only need 10 more credit hours! And my goal for the remainder of my undergrad career is to at least get all A's and B's next semester, and then for my final semester straight A's.. I know I can do it!

My son spent the weekend with his father, so I took a night to celebrate (solo dolo) with some wine... (:

Other great news, I recently got a job! I have not started yet, I have orientation this week. I am so excited to start working and earning money of my own again! And once I start working and get the swing of things I'll write more about my new job. I'm about to be really busy, but I'm prepared and know that I can do this! God would not throw anything at me that I could not handle! I hope to do some Christmas crafts with my son soon, so expect a post on all that in the near future!

Bad Habits But SO Much Fun!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kR-ygQv45hU

Before my I had my son, I knew I wanted kids one day (I LOVEE kids!), but I wasn't sure if I could have any. My mom had a really hard time conceiving me, and lets just say I felt like I got lucky way too many times. Anyway, I didn't believe I could have any children, and that thought just made me SO depressed. I tried not to think about it often. There's not too many people I have shared that with, but there it is!

Anyway, this is probably one of the many reasons I am so grateful for my son! My little blessing from God. Boy, is he amazing and so much fun! How did I get so lucky?! Motherhood is everything I imagined it would be and more! Yes, there are times when this boy drives me crazy and I feel like I need to run away(far far away)! And there are those days that I miss just having to worry about myself and not another human being. Being a mother is exhausting! Not just physically, but also on your mind; you are constantly thinking about your child- worrying about your child. And if you're like me you also have one million other things on your mind!

Me and Isaiah's father are not currently together, but thank God for him. He is a great dad. He does what he can and needs to do for Zay and he helps me out here and there. Also, my family is GREAT! When I need them they are always there for me. I am so thankful for my awesome support system- this would be a million times harder without them! And to the mothers that don't have as big as a support system, I give them all the praise because being a mother is work and hard work at that!

Ok, sorry for my little tangent- my mind wanders everywhere, but I had to get that out! I know that joining Zay in sticking his tongue out and spitting is an awful habit, but he is so darn cute I just couldn't help myself! In my defense, I DID NOT teach him this.. that was Grandpa! HAHA! I absolutely love these little moments I spend with my son. He is so fun and I am so thankful for him! Just thought I would share!

The Reason My Life Goes Round..

I want to dedicate my first post to my prince, my son, Isaiah Rasul. He is my reason to be the best I can be. The picture provided is old- it's from a few weeks after he was born, he is now 18 months, and perfect! He is learning so much everyday and starting to talk and everything! You never realize how much you can love someone until your children are born. It's a different type of love than I have ever experienced. I would do anything in the world to make sure he is happy and safe. I love that I can look into his eyes and immediately know that I am his world as well. How much he depends on me and trusts me is incredible. Our bond is unbreakable. In my eyes he can do no wrong. My patience does't wear thin (as quickly) with him as it does with everyone else, and I am a VERY impatient person. I KNOW one say he will do great things and I will do everything I can possible to push him to his full potential. I love him SO much. <3



Ok, that was my first sap post to my blog, but I HAD to do it. I had to introduce my blog letting y'all know how much I adore my son, so it doesn't come as a surprise that he is going to be what I blog about 99.99% of the time! HAHA! But seriously, Isaiah is my first child and I am a single mom, so this is ver new and exciting to me (and outside of Isaiah I have no life!) Although, I will write endless blogs about my adventures with Isaiah, I will write about other things too. I was kidding about having no life, I am finishing off my last year of college, about two years natural, learning Christ, and newly a vegetarian! The vegetarian thing is new-for a little over a month now- and it is an experiment, but hopefully I will stick to it and make it a lifetime change...we'll see! So, I do have things to write about, and I will try to keep it as interesting as possible, just stick with me!



*Moment of truth* I am awful with keeping up with blogs. I have had SO many in the past that I have just have not updated. I am going to try my very best to keep up with this one! I will try and post something weekly (at least- if not more!). I hope to not disappoint! But, like I said.. I haven't done this in awhile. So give me a minute to adjust! Feel free to leave comments and suggestions! If there is anything you would like me to blog about let me know.



Well it's late and my son will be waking me up in about six hours whether I like it or not! So, I am going to try and get some sleep. Will be updating y'all on my life events soon enough!