Feeling Sentimental

Isn't it crazy how something so little can bring forward a whirlpool of memories. Something you were taking in at one time and may not have even realized it? Well that just happened to me.

I am sitting here avoiding thinking about all the school work I should be doing and browsing through Facebook. One of my friends recently took a quiz determining which One Tree Hill character they were most like. I LOVE One Tree Hill and used to watch it ALL the time, so I decided to take the quiz.

Before taking the quiz there is a link they ask you to press to set the mood. So, I click the link and the theme song to One Tree Hill, I Don't Wanna Be by Gavin DeGraw begins to play. Now, I know I used to be obsessed with One Tree Hill and watch it all the time, but I couldn't quite place my finger on the time period. However, when I heard this song it all came rushing back to me. When I was pregnant and not doing too much extracurricular activities other than going back and fourth to school, I went on a Netflix binge. I started One Tree Hill from season one and watched almost everyday until I had my son.

I remember rubbing my belly and talking to Isaiah while watching this show. Falling in love with characters on the show, finding that I could relate to these characters and their problems and making promises to my unborn child. I know it sounds crazy, but all the memories that came rushing back to me when I heard this song really hit me because they were all memories of me being pregnant. Not all of them had to do with the show. I thought about the situation I was in, the house I lived in, the people I was surrounded by, and the people that supported me.

My pregnancy was not the easiest thing I have ever been through. It was unexpected and many people were disappointed in me. I am really thankful for the people that stuck by me and kept my spirits up! But at the end of really long days One Tree Hill was my escape. I got lost in the character's lives and problems. I spent time laughing and crying with my unborn son. When he was born and things got easier (but more hectic), I stopped watching One Tree Hill.

Anyway, hearing that song just made me think about a lot of things, and mostly about that intense bond I felt when Isaiah was still in my belly. I catch myself missing that bond sometimes. Don't get me wrong I am so glad he's here! Just sometimes I miss just having him so close and talking to him. I find it really hard to explain, but I hear a lot of mothers express feeling this way. Now my son is approaching two and I find myself lucky if I can get him to sit still and let me hold and talk to him for 15 minutes!

That's all I have for tonight. I'll probably go watch One Tree Hill on Netflix now! HA!
Goodnight y'all.

Back From Vacation

So, I just returned from a much needed vacation with my family! We went to St. Simons Island and we were there for 5 days, but the time just seemed to fly by! I wish I was still vacationing, but sadly life goes on and I'm back to the real world now- back to work and school.

The best part of my vacation for me was watching Isaiah on the beach! He surprises me every day. I thought he would be timid and nervous to get in the ocean, but all I had to say was "Isaiah let's go play in the water!" & he responded, "Okay!" and ran right in! I have so many pictures of him running in the sand and splashing in the water,  I could honestly stay out on the beach with him ALL day long! 

He amazes me daily. How he carries himself, how intelligent he is, just about every single thing about him! I thank God daily (and multiple times throughout each day) for blessing me with such a wonderful son! I just can't wait to see what's in store for his future.

Now I'm going to finish some homework I should have worked on while I had this break! I'll be posting pictures soon, just wanted to post something since I have been away from my blog for so long!